It's Haley!! Sorry I've been MIA. A lot has been going on as usual but mainly I've been discovering more and more about myself and that takes a lot more time than I ever imagined!! As you may know I was diagnosed with depression in high school after Hurricane Katrina devastated the Mississippi Gulf Coast. It had been an ongoing struggle with lots and lots of ups and downs but I feel like after finally being honest with myself and with the people trying to help me I've got it beat!! Sooooo I wanted to write about honesty today. I have been so unhappy with myself lately and I keep committing to but not following through with really amazing things which makes me even more unhappy with myself. After some "simple time" (time where I step back and figure out how to keep things simple) I realized I was not being honest with myself or the others around me. Yes I want to do all of these great and wonderful things because others around me do them and I too want to be great and wonderful but honestly I didn't know what great and wonderful things I wanted to do to make me great and wonderful. Fortunately, I have an amazing support system and they push me to keep reaching for my goals no matter what which is very motivating. However, I still needed to learn who I was and who I wanted to be and how I was going to get there before I committed to so many ventures.
This was my main problem. In a search of finding out who I am I committed to things on a whim in hopes that that goal would fulfill me. If I don't know who I am then how can I come up with ultimately fulfilling goals?? That's a serious challenge, right?! So finally I had to be honest with myself. Completely honest. I did not want to admit that at 24 I really had no clue who I was. I felt as though if I am legally an adult then I should know who I am as an adult. Well let me just tell you.... being an "adult" does not define you. You are not given a personal packet on who to be. Nope. You can and may have to pay bills but noone tells you who have to be. At first this was overwhelmingly scary but now it seems quite the blessing. Noone telling me who I have to be? That leaves a whole world of opportunity for me to choose and develop into the person that I want to be. Once I know who I am and what I want then those goals will be much easier to commit to and won't be such a burden. Ahhhh epiphany!!!
I still don't know everything about myself and we are constantly developing and growing as people which is so freeing and exciting but I do know a few things about me: 1) I love to help people, 2) I love food, and 3) I love talking. Based on these 3 things I can finally decide on an educational and career goal: Nutrition and Counseling!! What what?? These were actually my goals since my junior year of college but I kind of got away from that because I let life take me down confusing paths. Ironic how we still end up where we are meant to be!!! Anyways I am studying nutrition and pursuing the Registered Dietitian (RD) credential with UA via their distance learning program and then I plan on pursuing my Masters in Social Work (my first bachelors is in psych). I am so excited to be combining these two fields to 1) help people by 2) sharing my knowledge of my first love, food, and 3) talking to them during counseling to help them find themselves and determine THEIR goals.
That is my little story of how I came up with my most recent goals!! I am still working to lose weight and am excited to share that progress with you!! Honestly, I am!!!;)